ADMITTING

SO I TOTALLY HEAR MARLA WHEN SHE IS TALKING ABOUT DECISIONS AND THE WAY OUR MIND JUSTIFYS THEM. MY WEEK WITH NO SUGAR SHOULD REALLY NOT BE A BIG DEAL. 1ST OFF WHEN I SAY NO SUGAR IM MEANING PRETTY MUCH NO CANDY AND JUNK BECAUSE ALMOST EVERYTHING WE EAT IN THE DAY HAS SOME SUGARS. SO ITS NOT LIKE IM UN ABLE TO EAT NORMAL AND STILL STICK WITH MY GOAL, THAT BEING SAID I HAVE CONSTATNLY FOUND MYSELF JUST ALMOST GRABBING A LITTLE SOMETHING. JUST THE ONE LITTLE STARBURST ON MY DESK, AND PART OF ME IS LIKE ITS "ONE" "LITTLE" CANDY. I TRUTHFULLY HAVE DISCOVERED I HAVE SO MAJOR EATING ISSUES WHEN IT MEANS BEING ACCOUNTABLE FOR MY CHOICES EVEN THE "ONE" "LITTLE" ONES !! I AM TRYING THE SUGAR (JUNK) THIS WEEK BUT IM GOING TO HAVE TO DO SOME THINKING AND WORK ON ANOTHER ASPECT NEXT WEEK AND CHIP AWAY AT IT UNTIL I CAN TACKLE MY ISSUES ONE AT A TIME. I AM AN "ALL OR NOTHING" KINDA GIRL I GUESS BECAUSE IF I HAD THAT ONE STAR BURST THEN I WOULD JUSTIFY TAKING 1 BITE OF THE DAMN BROWNIES THAT ARE IN MY OFFICE TODAY AND CONVINCE MY SELF THAT I ALREDY BROKE MY SYSTEM FOR THE DAY WITH THE STAR BURTS SO ILL JUST HAVE A BROWNIE THEN WHO KNOWS WHAT AT HOME. I WILL HAVE TO DO SOME THINKING AND JOURNALING SO I CAN DECIDE THE SMALL GOALS TO REACH MY BIG GOAL( WHICH IS STILL ASLO UN DECIEDED ) I CANT OVERWHELM MYSELF WITH THE BIG PICTURE I HAVE TO DO ONE SMALL GOAL AT A TIME THEN ADD MORE AS I GO. AND TO TOP IT OFF I TOOK MY WALKING SHOES LAST NIGHT AND THEN DIDNT EVEN GO, BUT THAT IS OK.... THAT IS WHY I SAID 5 DAYS A WEEK I WILL NOW JUST HAVE TO DO A DAY THIS WEEKEND !!