Seven

7 pounds.  That's it!

So close I can taste it

8 pounds from my goal. I've never been closer.

Still here

14 pounds from my goal.  Wish me luck!

Tomorrow is a new day...

Just weighed in and just a few stats to look back on...
I'm 21 pounds from my goal.
I'm 13 pounds more than my very smallest.
I'm just 3 pounds more than I weighed on my first Dr. visit with London
I'm 6-11 pounds more than my "normal" weight (I wold fluctuate in this 5 pound range)
I'm 47 pounds less than I was at my VERY heaviest (the day before I had Brinley)
I'm 7 pounds less than I was at my first Dr. visit with Brinley.
And most importantly... I'm a few pounds heavier than I will be in the near future.

It really does take looking back to see how far you have come.  I am feeling discouraged.  I really didn't think it would take me this long to loose the baby weight and I still have 10 pounds or so to be at my normal weight.  I can't say that I have been working my guts out because I haven't.  I eat healthy  and I exercise, but I really don't work as hard as I want to.  Dr. S. said I should make it a goal to have Lunnie sleeping through the night by 5 months.  She is 5 months today and she woke up twice last night.  I have been using this as an excuse, but I don't have to.  I don't have to let this hold me back.  And from now on I am done with the excuses.  I'm trying to be brave enough to take a big step tomorrow.  I'm going to be brave enough to take a big step tomorrow (will report the big news after It's over). 

Meanwhile I have been going through this internal debate over my diet.  I know that having the body type I want requires a ridiculous amount of protein (probably too much).  I also know that I would be healthier on a plant based diet, but lets not forget that plants are carbs too.  So I constantly have the health angel and body devil arguing over my shoulders.  And right now, they are both winning.  I'm pretty balanced so I want to see where this diet of moderation will take my body.

As for the goals, I didn't forget.  Here is one that's on my mind.   I want to run a 7 minute mile sometime this year.  I could probably still run a decent distance since having Lun, but my time has suffered for sure and I was already slow to begin with. 

The reason I started this blog

So, I have been in a funk.   Haven't done horrible, just lacking goals and making time for the things I want to do.  I have been eating probably 90% clean for a long time.  It's pretty much effortless.  I just really don't eat processed food.  It's great.  I don't work out near as much as I want to our should, but that's about to change.  I will make time!!!  I may be tired, but I will be strong.  So... I was sitting here feeling like I'm just not making progress so I decided to look back at where I came from.  I'm currently 23 pounds away from my goal, but looking through past blog posts I realized I was once 53 pounds away from my goal.  I guess that means I lost 30 pounds!!!!!!  Would not have known or remembered that if it wasn't for this blog. 

My goal for the rest of the week is to put some serious thought into some goals.

I did it

I finally did 5 miles last night. It may be a few days before I do it again, but it's a work in progress. My goals are to run at least 3 miles when I run, 3 nights a week and to incorporate yoga into my exercise routine, and get to the point I can run 5 miles with ease and not stop.

Dedicated to Marla